It Hurts

Just when I thought things couldn't get worse, they did. About two hours ago my Grandad died. I knew he was sick, that he didn't have long, but it hurts. It hurts a lot. I haven't lost anyone before, I didn't know how bad it would feel. Everyone here is my lifeline - I can't deal with RL face-to-face stuff right now.

I appreciate all the support on my last entry but I'm in no state to reply to them right now. I just feel lost, sad and numb. It hasn't really sunk in yet, I dread when it does.